look at him!!!!!
wit and beauty.
and a suit.every smart girl's fantasy.

i stole this off some website.

John Barrowman is an Entertainer with a capital E. Voted number 3 in Broadcast Magazine’s Hot 100 Talent of 2006, he sings, he dances, he acts, he presents, he judges - he is a unique talent in the British entertainment industry.

i didnt go searchin for number 1.
coz if this is number 3,
i might have a heart attack if i saw number 1.

science fiction show!!!
and british!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhh...

i like science fiction. just for those who didnt know.
hence the reason for the many michael cordy and michael crichton books i collect.

torchwood comes with aliens, not exactly my favourite kind of science fiction,
but i have this feelin this is as good as it gets,
so i have managed to convince myself that i like it.

and i also think captain jack harkness is a whole lotta reason to watch it.
=)

torchwood airs mondays 940pm on ten, perthies.
and of course, theres my favourite sarcastic cynic on wednesdays at 830. the name's house.
and probably law and order's most loved detective, elliot stabler, on thursdays at 830.
ok lah my most loved ok.

oh i almost forgot.
rove on sunday at 830.
which takes precedence over greys anatomy which airs at the same time.

and now i just realized i dunno what i am doin this for.

but its ok i have all the time in the world.
i just have about 6 more weeks of slides to go through.
and a textbook i refuse to read.

im blabbering.

Later ; 1:05 AM ; 0 comments

Sunday, June 17, 2007

total randomness.

it was a horrible night at metros.
clearly they do not live up to the name 'metro city: R&B Superclub' anymore.

lesson learnt: go early and leave early.


what i thought of the music.

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i am ultra tired for i dunno what reason,
but i want to load these coz i want to delete them off the comp.
some of these have been sittin around for too long.

our study hangout for 2 days.
dome at hampden road.
very study conducive.
the view and the breeze and the sights and sounds are strangely therapeutic.

saw these 2 cute ah mas.

tried sending an mms to pearl but it wouldnt go thru (unconfigured new fone),

so i rang her to tell her what i was lookin at, and to say that next time when we are 50 i hope we will be havin coffee like that!

im the one on the right. coz she looks grumpy and fierce.

pearl is a nicer girl so she is the friendlier looking ah ma.

the view from the UWA watersports complex where we had hiphop.

s13 at murdoch.
still waitin for the day i own a yellow car.

someone decided to play around with the computers in the psyc lab.

the moon.
totally luv.
this is the outside.

self explanatory picture.

the tiramisu thats claimed to be the best by links.
ciao italia's.

thick, soakin wet layers of alcohol.
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ok i am very tired so good night.
sleep debt is indeed a worthy phenomenon.

Later ; 5:48 AM ; 0 comments

Friday, June 15, 2007

mid-exam rantings

so hello there again.
it has been a helluva horrible month or so, seein as its exam month over here for western australian universities.

ive had 2 papers so far, weds and thurs,
and unhappily i say that thursday's paper can only be described with the use of any word that has no positive connotations whatsoever.

ive been studyin my ass off for that paper,
coz its the one that has a bluddy lot of readings to do, like 13 weeks worth of lectures (approx. 9 pages each), and a book worth of articles about 250 pages or so.

every sem i tell myself im NOT goin to study consistently coz it always seems to be of no use when i get into the exam and realize i can remember nothing,

but this time it was hell presented on that exam desk.

20 mins to the end of the exam i still hadnt started on my last essay question, and hadnt completed the other 3.

not that if u had given me another 5 hours i woulda been able to do anything more.
it was another one of those exams where i sit and stare at people around me.

so far when ive done that its returned distinctions, but this time i am highly skeptical.

and to top it off i was in the wrong exam room. neither charlotte nor i noticed.
not that it was a big deal (supposed to be in room 5 we went to room 4) but yeah.

there goes the HD for that unit.

collected yesterday my essay for the other unit whose paper was on weds.
7.75/10.
very weird. they usually dont do the marks to 2 decimal places.
but anyway. thats not the point. the point is dammit no HD.

the best that can happen this sem will be 2 HDs and 2 Ds, and the worst, 3 Ds and 1 C.
i am so hating this right now.

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it prolly isnt really a big deal, not gettin all HDs.
and i know that.

but ive never been one for mediocrity.
u know, just aim to pass kind.

coz i know im not stupid and that im capable of the damn HDs.

if im only aimin to pass, its like either i must be sibeh stupid,
or they made me write my essays in chinese.

im lazy as anythin (whatever aspect of life u want to talk about),
but i will always do the bare minimum to get the best result,
not the least to do slightly above the worst.

my father's money is not for wasting on studies because i am failing because i keep dunno doin what at dunno where with dunno who.

ooh btw i was re-watchin the singapore movie just follow law,
and its super funny man.

the 4 B's: bang jio, bang sai, bang pui, bang gang!!!

people who havent watched it should go get hold of a DVD or VCD or whatever and watch at least the first 45 mins of it. its hilarious.

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so.
for the first time in more than a week, last night i slept like a baby.

it feels wonderful not to be in a state of 'conscious sleep', with words like metamer, inductive reasoning and acetylcholinasterase runnin thru my head.

and it feels good to be able to sit down and blog for as long as i want.

was at nicole's house weds night, studyin all the way from 10pm-6am, fallin asleep from 6-8, and then studying all the way again from 10-2.

a while ago i took this foto. they belong to nic but she hates em coz theyre too sweet (she bought em for her family back in HK but she didnt go back so she couldnt give it to them).



tim tam got this 'flavour' one meh?!?!
according to nicole i am very sua ku coz they apprarently sell this in supermarkets all the time.

i am so sure its like a special edition thing lor.

old pic again. rem a while ago i said i couldnt get my sony erricson so load its fotos onto the computer?

well i got a new n70 so i bluetoothed the pics over and loaded em from the n70 to the com.

this is the uh, very unclear mudcake from the moon.

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ok have more to blog about but will do that another time.

i have a feelin blogger is stuffin up my post already due to its length.

Later ; 5:48 PM ; 0 comments

Monday, June 11, 2007

god. the way i think about you.

i cant stop thinkin about this certain someone.

and i know exactly why it is that i keep thinkin of that someone.

before i sleep its the last thing i see and when i wake up thats the first thing i think of.

this has been goin on for over a week now.

and its drivin me crazy.

the things i'll never say.

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exams start weds. weds, thurs and thursday again.

8min lab exam returned results of 80%. satisfactory i suppose.

time to go back to goin crazy.

Later ; 6:54 PM ; 1 comments

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Dear God, grant me the serenity to accept the annoyin pple i cannot change, and wisdom to blog interestingly about it.

1)

you know the kind of pple who like, only know how to take take take and dunno how to give back (or have no shame therefore dont care about giving back)?

like the kind, who always ask for help, then when u need help u cannot find them coz they are too busy...

or the kind who like only appear when they need help, otherwise you never hear from them.

like they never ask to hang out or go coffee that kinda thing.

or the kind who everytime ask for lifts from u knowing its outta the way, then never offer to drive u in return sometime or offer to pay petrol or offer to buy u drinks blah blah blah u get my drift...

super irritating this kinda pple.

i am 'scared' of these pple to the point where i run from them. LITERALLY.

there's this singapore cha bor who does psyc also with us.

and its like i didnt know this at first,

but she is the need help only then find u kind.

otherwise will never ask u out or talk to u.

if she talks to u in real life/msn/sms,

u can be sure its to do with your psyc units.

that time i didnt know she is liddat lah,

so when she msg me on msn, i tried to help her,

even though i wasnt doin that assignment topic.

i mean i offered, and if someone offers this kinda thing,

normal pple with shame will just ask you a few questions and see if maybe u know and can help right?

this person, send me ALL the slides related to the assignment,

and ask me to explain what the slides are about -_-

(first thought was, uh what the heck are u doin in class if u dont understand EVERYTHING? but anyway)

i tried lor. and i couldnt get it at first glance,

and i mean i got my things to do also,

so i asked her to msn this other person doin that assignment.

she came back to me and told me that person told her, that she already threw away her assignment.

i thought like..uh thats weird lah i mean where got pple throw away assignment one.

then this girl said like its so obvious the person dun wanna help blah blah blah.

i was too busy to care lah.

anyway,

wah AFTER THAT, EVERY WEEK THIS GIRL MSG ME ON MSN,

TO ASK ABOUT ASSIGNMENTS/EXAMS LOR.

ask what topic i am doin for this essay, want to share ideas, can help her check coz she dunno whether what she wrote is correct onot...

then for this unit we were given 11 possible questions for the exam, of which 4 will come out.

then she ask oh want to exchange essay so less stressful dunno what...

WAH LAU EH!!!!!!!!

HELLO YOU THINK WHAT.

never mind if i am your friend lah.

i mean, if nicole asks i will definitely help her lor.

like nicole uses my notes and i send her essays and shit.

no prob at all with me.

hor nicole. muahaha.

but bluddy &*!(&@!

you only talk to me when u want my help.

never mind that also,

you got nothin to offer me u dare to ask for my 'resources' ar.

summore she can say oh she's very stupid im very smart she always fail i always HD.

THEN U THINK I WANT TO EXCHANGE MY ESSAYS WITH U MEH???

i am like not that horrible lah,

but i believe in mutually beneficial relationships of whatever kind they may be.

this 'relationship' is like, negative returns can.

its not even like breakeven or null value lor.

PEK CHEK.

so anyway, i am forever complainin to nicole about this girl lah.

coz i have zero tolerance for such behaviour.

nicole is a very nice girl, so she like still entertains this girl on msn/sms.

i blocked her already a few weeks ago, and i dont reply smses.

(sometimes i think nicole is very nice thats why she is pretending to be my friend also. HAHAHAH)

while nicole was photocopying my notes in the lib today,

that girl happened to walk past so she started talkin to nicole.

i was sittin at the comp about 6m away, and i saw her.

reflex response:

SHIT 1

NICOLE IS PHOTOCOPYING MY NOTES

PERSON SEES MY NOTES (which are really, very good lah k. its everything u need on the piece of paper. lecture notes/notes from readings etc)

SURE ASK TO BORROW

SHIT 2

IF PERSON WALKS PAST AND SEES ME

SURE ASK TO EXCHANGE SOMETHING, which makes me feel bad lah coz like i mean, i dun want to share den its quite obvious right, whatever excuse i give.

(also waste my time coz she will ask this ask that lah,

but that wasnt the main concern at that point)

i managed to sneak off and call nicole to tell her dun tell that person i am around,

but the kookoo woman left her fone in her bag which was at the comp with me -_-

thank goodness miss wong is sibeh smart,

and when that girl said to her "oh i bet raE is studying hard somewhere in the lib too"

nicole told her oh yeah maybe she is here or at home lah im not sure.

power to nicole.

then the person walked right past me lor.

i mean my back is facing the walkway area,

but i thought i was bluddy conspicuous enough for anyone to notice.

(short, fat, dressing, HAIR)

obviously not. good for times like these.

the person walked into the staircase area,

i presume to go to the toilet.

i literally SPRINTED to where nicole was,

and the woman burst out laughing.

because 1) she said i looked like a small kid

and 2) she knew why i was running there.

after i found out she'd lied,

in about 10 secs, id grabbed my readings and disappeared.

told her id be back in 10mins.

(otherwise if the girl comes out and sees me there it'll be like a super weird situation lah. i got no time to deal with that)

ive never been so scared of someone in my life lah.

anyway later we found out from this girl who's nicole's friend who was sittin at the next computer from us,

that everyone hates that girl.

coz she is forever doin this kinda thing lah.

borrow car, never contribute to activities blah blah blah

until they kicked her outta the hostel can.

so jialat sia.

i dunno man.

how come got this kinda pple one huh?

i think nicole is very scared of me also.

until now she is forever offering to pay for my dinners in return for stuff.

HAHAHAHAH.

u see ar. pple who offer, are like. amazing lah.

i couldnt think of a better word.

but just the fact that pple offer is like...wow.

2)

other than that,

its been a rather fulfillin day though, i must say.

3-530: study at com science labs

530-7: hiphop

7-800: study at lib

800-900: dinner at broadway

9-11: study at lib

11-2: study/chat at nicole's with dennis and christina.

shiok.

finished everythin i planned to study+more.

hence the time for bloggin.

oh yar.

just now at broadway, we were standin outside this shop lookin at the menu which was stuck on the glass so u can see it without goin inside the shop.

and there was this ad for hiring pple, and it said like:

can speak CANTONESE and MANDARIN, and can write CHINESE.

blah blah blah.

id just opened my mouth to tell nicole that i definitely cannot apply for that job,

when this man standing outside noticed us lookin at/reading the thing,

and said "if you (smthin related to the chinese thing i cant remember), i'll hire u now"

i started laughing.

i told him i was just about to say that im everything this ad is NOT looking for.

it was quite funny at the time. ah well.

3)

pic i took 2 days ago from my room's balcony.

the white thing on the right is the pillar.

anyway it looks a million times more pretty seen with eyes.

my camera is a lousy piece of crap.

as evidenced by the lack of pimples captured in fotos taken during clubbin.

my face looks ultra crap now btw.

i can hear some pple saying u mean now only ar.

oh har dee har har so funny you.

ok i think i shd continue doin some work.

damn exams.

or sleep.

this is what overproductivity does to me.

im lost when i have nothin to do...

Later ; 3:11 AM ; 2 comments

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

all rolled into one

supposed to be studyin, but i needed a break so i thought id blog.

1)
went to uni at 4 to pick up my psyc 316 essay, and to study.
finally, an essay mark that reflects my true essay-writing abilites...

i prolly shouldnt brag, lest i receive the dreaded '68' for the 3 yet-to-be returned assignments, but i got 85 for this ridiculously stressful essay, and i am very happy with that.

anyway, studied till 10, then linkies and i went to the moon for supper.

its now 0339hrs and i am STILL stuffed up to my neck with dinner.

i had a picture of the world's most sinful piece of food taken with my fone camera, but the program that transfers the stuff from fone to computer refuses to NOT display the error message and let me upload my stuff, so no pic.

it was a mudcake btw, drowned in chocolate syrup, and ice cream and cream on the side.

also had a plate of pasta, and a piece and a half of garlic bread.

and i look in the mirror everyday and wonder why i am fat.

2)
linkies always says we complement each other.

coz i have absolutely no sense of current affairs or of political issues,
and he has uh, no common sense whatsoever.

i told him i need to start a blog column for him titled...uh, something to the extent of him being a retard lah. i cannot think of an appropriately witty title now.

so anyway, he wanted to look for the menu for the moon (the cafe...for those un-perthy people).

and he googled 'THE MOON'. -_-

after he did that and saw the search results he realized what a goon he was, turned around to me and started tryin to describe what he'd just done, without laughin too loudy seein as we were in the library.

seriously lah.

3)
speakin of linkies, and lack of various sense types,

this reminds me of what my brother said the other day.

we were talkin about stupidity and ignorance, and my dad said there's no difference coz they both cause the same result.

(we always talk about ignorance coz i am bluddy ignorant and links and dad and josh like to sigh at/laugh at/make fun of me. to illustrate just how severe my ignorance is, linkies actually asks me questions like 'you DO know who osama bin laden is RIGHT?', after realizin who he's talkin to about that 'subject'; we, or i rather, also always talk abt stupidity coz i am forever goin on about stupid pple i have come across)

and joshie, in his matter-of-factly voice, went "no its not the same. ignorance is lack of knowledge, stupidity is lack of capacity to learn".

my 14-yr old brother is smarter than the 2 of u combined mannnn.
any 'twos'. i dont care who u are.

smarter than u but prolly as lazy as u.
sigh. one of my greatest causes for concern.

wah lau i was damn shocked man.

daddy says we have the best of both worlds.
one parent got looks one parent got brains.
my mother wasnt too happy with that statement.
WAHAHA.

nat says i am obsessed with this stupidity thing. i think so too.
but pple keep givin me opportunity to make fun of their lack of capacity what!!!

but honestly lah. i really dont mean to be horrible,
but i REALLY cannot understand how it is possible to be SO stupid!!!

4)
i am in a super beach boys state of mind now.

the moon was playin beach boys music,
i came home and DLed all the songs...

been listenin to them and reminiscing the times in dad's car when he used to play the cd for us.

if u have been brought up in an english-speakin family and you dont know who the beach boys are or cant name a song by them, please go smack yourself against the mirror.

anyway i was thinkin how things have changed, and how now we like never really go out with dad anymore coz we're all grown up and so busy with school, have our own cars, have our own friends etc.

i miss sittin in the supermarket trolley,
miss singing to the beatles in the car,
miss goin to the arcade and makin dad throw the stupid balls into the dunno what thing so we can win tickets...

time sure flies. cliche, but so true.

it seems like it was only yesterday i was made to stand in the corner of the music room by miss say for talkin too much to jeannette during band prac.

now im three weeks away from a degree,
joshua is no longer fat and no longer bites his sisters,
and nat has a boyfriend.

i guess i should study now.

'old' picture of markee and i.
coz i think he looks cute here.

intelligently yours, my babies.
till we meet again.

Later ; 3:16 AM ; 0 comments

Friday, June 01, 2007

maybe memories: the used

downloaded the used's new album today,

and have been listenin to it since.

now i am extremely distracted by the thoughts they have brought about,

and the emotions which they have aroused.

i think of the first Used song i ever listened to.

blue and yellow.

and i think again of the person who burned that song on the cd that was made just for me.

and after all these years,

i am beginnin to believe that this is indeed true.

he wrote those words years ago.

and i went 'yeah right!'

and it is only now that i am realizing that those words are coming to pass.

if only i knew then, what i know now.

that perhaps i do love you.

then maybe i would not have given you up so easily,

told you that i was done with all that.

if i could have anything in the world,

right now,

all i want is to have jamie back.

Later ; 3:22 AM ; 0 comments