Lust? or L*ve?
Personally i think the bleeding one reflects the whole thing the best. u L*ve and u die. or u kill the other person before they kill u first.
dont ask why im still awake at this time doin stuff like that.
Later ; 8:15 PM ;
-just got back a while ago from northbridge. dammit im so full from dinner. after not eating for the whole damn day.
-went to city to meet edd for dinner n drinks. supposed to meet at 730..had to park so damn far at cynthia's shop and walk to gelare from there, so i was late for like about 5 mins. he was later -_- like 20+ mins. and he didnt have a fone so i couldnt ring him or whatever. rang mark and he said he could meet me if edd didnt show up coz he was at asami's place near the city. oh well anyway edd showed up. went for dinner at billy lee's. squid, chicken n fried rice..man im so fat. hopefully the food will last me another day so i dont need to eat again. oh damn but im supposed to have lunch with simee at ikea tmr =/ help.
-went to meet markee at timezone after dinner. walked down to the elephant to grab a drink n a chat. had baileys =/ yar yar i have a bottle at home. but its tradition. i always drink baileys when out with edd =) n he always has damn beer. eeech..
-didnt really do much else. markee went home after drinks. walked to edd's car then he drove me to mine. said bye..=/ not gonna be seein him for the next 2+ years. well, hopefully we'll get to catch up in feb when he stops over in singapore on his way to malaysia. sigh why do white pple always go travelling? have u met any asians who do that?!??
-on a whole different note. do u think pple who always get what they want, are never satisfied for long with what theyve gotten? and those who seldom/never get what they want, really treasure what they have when they finally get it? and if thats the case, then is it coz those pple who always get what they want, know that they can always get another one later, and maybe a better one? and those who dont usually get what they want, think they probably wont be able to get another one and thats why they cherish what theyve got so much?
-well like what i always say.. 拿不到的就要。越拿不到的越要。 拿到了就不要。the heart always wants what it cant have. right? not always i guess. and also u dunno what u got till its gone. damn why are all the cliche sayings so damn true!! forbidden fruits..everyone wants stuff they cant have. just coz they cant have it? or coz they really want it coz they like it? hmxxx...
-refer also to april 13th blog, 4th paragraph.
Later ; 3:41 PM ;
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
-damn 2 posts in the same day. well i am pretty damn bored.
-hell. are all guys really the same? seems like when youre in a r/ship with them, they all are. IS IT REALLY A FACT that all men can sleep anytime, anywhere, doing anything? honestly im beginning to believe the sad reality of my made up statement. which is, slowly, proving to be based very much on fact.
-when a guy is tired, does nothing else matter? i mean, what happened to the nights when u were so damn into a girl, all u wanted to do was talk to her, hang out, even if u had bloody school or work the next morning at 6am? and what happened to the times where when u woke up u msged, during the day u'd call, leave voicemessages (the pager days), when u got home u buzzed to let her know ure back safe??? what the hell is going on? ARE PEOPLE REALLY RIGHT ABOUT THE HONEYMOON PERIOD OF A R/SHIP?
-how come girls always expect guys to call and they always dont. well, maybe not always. but still. we get worried you know? or we think we're not good enough for u etc etc. take ur pick there's heaps. seriously is it THAT difficult to pick up the fone and ring or send a text?? it only takes 20 seconds (if ure good) for crying out loud.
-im sure girls dont do that. do we? if we say we'll call we always call. erm, right?
-damn it. guys. cant do with them, cant do without em. im doomed for failure.
-PS. im just whining. guy frens, what would i do without u. i'd be lost. and im sure not ALL of u need THAT much sleep all the time. *ahem linkies*.. heh.
-PS2. do all guys really want to have threesomes??
Later ; 6:27 PM ;
-rove is so damn funny. how come some pple are just naturally funny and some try to make u laff and fail terribly? hm....
-was pretty annoyed just now. came home ard 7+ from a day out in the city with mark james n cynthia. went to get dim sum with james n cynthia for lunch..anyway. came back n like the house was damn quiet. no one downstairs. mum was sleeping (wtf rite), sister studying and bro in his room with all lights off playing with the laptop. ANYWAYS point is, before i came up i saw this bowl full of yong tao fu curry n noodles ON THE COUCH half eaten, and an empty bowl n plate on the coffee table. obviously it was the brother's. seriously he's pissin the shit outta me even though he's a nice kid. just damn inconsiderate. doesnt think about other pple at all. just assumes my mother is gonna wash the damn things for him tmr. which she always does. but thats not the point. (yes he's FARKING SPOILT LIKE SHIT). and hello why are u in ur room in bed at 7+. the past 2 weeks when my dad's been away on business, he's been faking sick so he doesnt have to go to sch. 2 weeks in a row. wed- fri pretend to be sick. knowin he'll get away with it becoz my mother lets him have his way. damn annoying. i dunno why it annoys me so much. guess its coz i know dad gets upset about it but cant do anything coz of the wife. fark. and my bro doesnt give a shit that my dad has to pay so much damn money for him to skip school 3 days a week every week. went to nag at him to clean up his shit downstairs. dunno if he has but itd better be removed from the living room ad washed up when i go down later.
-was watching the final episode of dancing with the stars just now. the champion of champions competition. oh man i lurve dancing..they look so cool. i wanna do ballroom dancing but no time and no partner. and i think im too damn short =/ it looks so nice and..poise and elegant and sophisticated and FUN FUN FUN....and they have such nice bodies...and they have such good chemistry...wonder what its like to have a dance partner that you're in l*ve with. how sweet is that....*shudders*
-bah so boring...oh well..wish this was singapore. and i had the car..so many places to go...pple to meet. here its like...great...what to do now? okok no complainin. better than goin to school and having homework.
-babee doesnt lemme have my way without a fight now =/ bah.. its sooo bad! ive been spoiled for the past 4 mths n now..whats goin on!!!! boo. he actually says NOOOO to me now. help! *grrRrr*. oh well. give n take, thats what its all about, right? oh man...i cant wait to see u again...soon babee soonnnnn...n its gonna be sooo good. i hope
Later ; 2:53 PM ;
Sunday, November 20, 2005
-didnt end up watching PRIME with chaRles coz we missed the 130pm one at carousel. but we planned to meet at 2 so i guess it wasnt really a miss in that sense. anyways we watched 40 yr old virgin. it wasnt the greatest of shows but i guess it was quite funny. its the kinda show where u watch n walk out n forget everything. or i do at least. had lunch at the foundry as usual. but this time we had a salad n some different turkish bread dip thing, intstead of the normal turkish bread with 3 dips and like our own main meal. woohoo...ok nobody knows what im talking about here.
-met up with mark n cynthia n james in city on the way home from carousel coz i didnt wanna go back early. had dinner with em n then they came over. dropped cynthia home n markee at stirling.
-went to trinity to meet samuel..so funny.. told him i'd be there in 15 mins after i dropped mark off at the station. so he said to park at this carpark n he'd come n wait for me there coz thats where he parked his car n we were gonna take his car to go out...so, i was expecting him to be standing at the front waitin for me. instead, when i got there, he was sittin in his car, parked right at the entrance where cars turn in to the place. and no, it wasnt a parking lot. car position was parked so it was ready to go right outtat the place. lol. ah well...again nobody knows what im talkin abt..
-*went for 35 mins jog. made it half way to the beach. then back.* continues typing now..
-samuel drove us to this karaoke place that lets u sing in the hall if u get a drink or smthin like that..but the damn place was closed. the opening hours on the door were like. wrong...so anyway went to this other place called dreamland or dreamworld or whatever. same concept. except there were like so damn many ang mohs we decided to go back later coz it was so damn noisy..
-took a drive to kings park. went to that dna tower thing. bloody hell make me climb all the way to the top when my legs were aching. bleagh. sat in the car n chatted for a while den went back to the karaoke place..less ang mohs this time but still so damn noisy. n they were singing at the top of their lungs, screaming outta tune. dancing..harmonicas. u name it. fark by the time we left which was pretty damn long later coz we took so long to choose our songs, we had throbbin headaches. but i guess u look at em, and u think. wow they really know how to hang loose and have a great time. how come asians are so conservative? oh well. culture? i guess so..
-went for suppe at the usual cheena place. i lurve that place coz the fried rice n squid is nice..n the damn waiters are both so cute...eee!! *squeals* went back to sam's place for a bit. chatted. watched some videos on the poota. got back at about i dunno. 5am?
-too damn tired to even bathe. went straight to bed. that meant i didnt have a shower for a day. i dun think thats happened for a long long long time. maybe during year 11 bio camp or smthing. but it was bloody zeroo degrees up in those damn hills.
-goIn out for dinner soon. aunt's bday thingy. man im supposed to be on diet. lets see if i manage to lose my 5kg by the 28th. i doubt it.
-PS. i smell of mango smoothie from the bath soap. i feel like licking myself. nah not really
Later ; 9:36 AM ;
Friday, November 18, 2005
-bloody hell lah some pple really have issues.
-rang this person today. my EX best friend. (Check blog post "its been a long time coming" on the 16th of october) well, actually, been tryin to ring since 12am on the 16th. coz it was his bday n wanted to say happy birthday. he didnt pick up his fone till this afternoon. oh, and after tryin about 20 times yesterday to call again n again, i sent him a happy birthday sms. no reply. anyways this morning he picked up. once i said hello and his name after the hello, he hung up on me. seriously. thats just rude. at least hear what i have to say?
-anyways. here's the long story short. used to be best frens for 3-4 years. i moved to perth. but we still kept in contact and were still close n always met up when i was back. this year he got a new job after NS n all n a few jobs before. so really busy. thats fine. so no calls often anymore, no meeting up often when i went back etc etc. then suddenly a few months back stopped seeing him on msn as well. thought he mightve blocked me. but didnt think it could be that. coz we hadnt had a fight or anything. there'd be no reason for him to do that right? turns out he did. n i didnt even know it. till i read his blog. n right there was this post that he'd copied from MY BLOG that id written complainin about my parents when i was annoyed at them. said how disrespectful i was n he'd never say stuff like that about his parents, coz they like brought us up n blah blah blah. n asked for comments from pple hoo read his blog. n the previous post was all about how shitty a person i am. like WhAT? we didnt even argue or whatever. hadnt talked in ages. suddenly he was cursing n stuff at me. saying what a selfish person i am blah blah blah. didnt really get to read all the details coz i was skimmin thru the text. closed the window. msged him thru sms n said like thanks for shitting about me behind my back. if u have a prob with me why cant u just tell me. tried to go back to his blog after that to read properly thru n see if there was a reason he was mad at me n sayin all that stuff. turns out he WAS prolly on msn at the time coz he deleted the blog right after i msged him. so couldnt access it anymore. great yeah?
-everyone says i shouldnt bother coz obviously the person's a jerk. but, we used to be best friends. n i liked him. like in the best fren way. we had so much fun together. talked everyday n stuff. so i guess despite what pple say, n despite me tryin to convince myself that he's not worth bothering about if he can say stuff about me n do stuff like that to me, i still do care about why he's angry at me, and i still do wish we could be friends again. but i guess thats not gonna happen. and my dad even asked about him today. how uncanny is that right?
-anyways. had to fetch dad to airport today coz mum was being a bitch again. always asks him to take a cab to and from airport coz oh she's so busy n tired n headache n its dangerous for her to pick him up when he comes back at nite coz car might break down etc etc ALL SHIT. so i took him coz she thought i was goin out to meet pple so can drop him on the waybefore i go out (its not on the way but u know what i mean).
-rang sean n asked if he wanted to meet up. woke him up. sorry sean! dropped dad off n went to city to meet sean at 4..walked ard, went to eat..bought a saves the day t shirt! it was on sale. wahHAha..$38 to $25. but when i went to pay, the woman said $20 please. woooopee. went to utopia for a drink. my legs were really hurting today coz of the jog yesterday. den went to eat at this place in northbridge. the new hawker place. but so damn ex n shit. had some nasi goreng thing. went to catch a movie at 9...BEE SEASON. wanted to see coz it had richard gere in it. heh..seriously that show was so damn deep. dun really get it. like the underlying meaning n all. if anyones free go watch it please and tell me what u thought. oh, and we were the only pple in the cinema. and also we were the last ones to leave the place. wahHAhaha..the pple mustve been so annoyed coz we came in 2 mins before the show started. like they mustve been hoping no one would wanna watch so they could go home earlier. but we did. oops. n PLUS it was only 2 of us. so they had to screen it, AND stay open till we left. haha....oh well......
-came back at about 1130...
-oh, and i booked ian a ticket for the wrong damn date. oops. supposed to be 29th, i booked 30th. n it was on credit card too. and all confirmed n shit. tried to change it but uh. i was a bit stupid at the time so he had to get outta bed and turn on the computer and do it himself...sorry babeeee..."babeeeeee! why u do this kinda thing to me at 1am in the morning when i have to get up in 3 hours!!" if u didnt say it so cutely i'd be offended. heh. but ure so cute. =) well. just now u were.
-out with charles tmr..to watch PRIME! yipeeess. wanted to watch that with ian but he didnt sound like he wanted to watch it. so..there u go babee. im saving u from havin to watch what u think mite be a bad movie...
-i lUv being on holiday. im so damn tired but i dun have to go to bed coz i dun need to be well-rested for the next day. coz the next day is a day full of slacking! wahHAhahahah...
over n out.
Later ; 6:05 PM ;
Thursday, November 17, 2005
- YAY. the exams are finally over..THE SEMESTER IS OVER. the uni academic year is over. this means 3 months of freedom. well, almost. not counting the typical parent you-cant-do-this-you-cant-do-that unfreedom part of it. but im sure i'll deal with that when it comes. which will be anytime soon.
-last exam was today. seriously i think consistent studying is bad for u. for me at least. ive been doin so much study everyday during the semester, when it came to the exam week, i sorta couldnt be bothered anymore. coz i'd read everything already at least 5 times before and i was gettin too damn lazy..randomly flipping thru the pages tryin to convince myself i was doin work when i wasnt. u know, im lookin at the book....bah whatever its over...yipeeeeeee.....
-went to city after paper today with stephanie. bought ian smth + nat's birthday present thing..walked ard a bit..
-went jogging with nat for a bit when i came back..decided to jog to karrinyup to get juice. wanted to use this coupon thing to get 1 free..turns out it was expired last month but the damn supermarkets are still givin them out by accident. didnt have enuff money so we ended up having to share a large one. which we never finished..
-went to give tuition to the econs kids..im $75 richer, for doin nothing. well, sacrificin 3 hrs of my life and a quarter tank of petrol..ah well. other than that...its basically free money for me. n money for free is a good thing.
-rang jeff last nite to say happy birthday..ended up chattin for bloody nearly 3 hrs i think..i was supposed to be studying for stats...ah well. so much for that...
-anyways. it was a super great long chat. abt life, l*ve, n every damn thing one could possibly talk about. glad we're able to still be friends n stuff. i guess it has been quite a few years already so maybe thats why its become easier for him.
-i find it extremely amazing how someone can know another person so well. its quite scary actually. i guess he's not always right when he says something about me, but usually later it proves to be quite true. or he'll gimme an explanation for why im the way i am. or i'll ask a question and he'll have these long philosophical answers which are, pretty interesting to listen to and debate about... i mean, how do pple like that know all this stuff??? about u, and about the world in general........
-like last nite we were talking about our r/ships (present n past). n i asked if when we were together if i ever had a problem with the L*ve word. turns out that even 4 years ago i didnt like this word, felt wierd hearing it, and didnt really like replying to that word. n i was like whats wrong with me..n he said some stuff that, well, i guess i sorta think might be true. he said like its coz of the way ive been brought up, family background n all. but i said like my parents say it all the time, or used to say it all the time. so why cant i say it..n he said like its coz they say it all the time but i dun see or feel the l*ve from em. so on the one hand, i feel funny n awkward n i dont like it, when someone says it to me, coz maybe i think they say it without meaning it, whereas to me i'd only say it when i mean it. either that or its like, i cant deal with it when i think that the person sayin it really means it. i dunno how to explain it. but what jeff said to me really made me think about why i have this problem with the damn word. its just a word for goodness sakes. im screwed. n its not that i dont feel it. i just. dont like sayin it all the time. or most of the time at least.
-jeff's still the same old jeff. dont think he's changed much. still talks the same way, laughs the same way, makes the same jokes. =) but he said ive grown up n im not as stubborn as i was before. n ive gone softer..=/ is that bad or good. well i gues pple HAVE to grow up as they get older right? or perhaps not. i guess i do know some pple who still act like kids in some ways. but who doesnt at certain times? right?
-bah. sleepy now. havent been gettin nice sleeps since a month ago. damn exams. sorta did the whole re-setting of alarms again this morning. finally got up at like 0530 when i realized that if i didnt id be screwed for the paper. which is pretty much what happened when i got to the exam. if life isnt that shitty, i might still get my HD. we'll see.
-ok enuff for now. maybe i'll watch tv. or a dvd. or read my roald dahl books.
-my boyfriend is out playing car racing games. again. bah.
Later ; 2:28 PM ;
Monday, November 14, 2005
-what a day.
-went to bed at like 6 or so. dont really remember. managed to drag myself outta bed at about 1130 so that i could go thru the damn econs stuff so i wouldnt seem like that much of an idiot to my tuition kids. but i think they realized i dunno anything when i got there. =/ oh well. at least i said i'd go and look up stuff for them that i thought was useful. and we did manage to get thru some stuff. stuff they already knew without having me tell them. seriously why do they want tuition from me?
-oh. and i threw out the paper that i wrote the directions to their house on. coz i didnt think id be tutoring them anymore after the last time which was months ago. thought i could grab the street directory off one of the parents' cars before i left. but theyd gone out in the honda n dad brought the Jaguar keys with him. what the hell rite. so i had to go and buy a damn directory at the petrol station which cost $30. its the 2006 one. i coulda gotten a 2005 for for like $10 somewhere else. managed to work my way to their house. ubt got lost on the way back. dammit. ended up i dun even know where but managed to get back. took so damn long.
-meant to finish 8 chaps of stats for psyc 203 on weds. i just finished chap 3 n its 115am. im screwed but whats new. tmr gotta go to the damn dentist as well. which is gonna be such a waste of my time. shit..
-rang ian this morning. i think it took like 3 times for him to finally pick up. was gettin pretty damn worried coz i hadnt gotten any calls or text messages for the rest of the day n nite yesterday after the quick chat in the afternoon. turns out he was sleeping when i called. said he was sorry he didnt call me last nite when he was meant to, that he was a 'goner', n that he wanted to go back to sleep n he'd talk to me later. i think that kinda did it for me. wasnt too happy after that. i dont like it when boyfriends dont letcha know what theyre up to, and its even worse when they get drunk/high or whatever.
-so anyway the story now is that he couldnt ring coz the phone network over there was stuffed n wouldnt let him ring out. ok so why didnt u say that earlier? seriously.
-today's prolly the first time ian's raised his voice at me. or declared statements like 'wtf is wrong with u'. i guess im rubbin off on him. which isnt good becoz that means he's gonna be a crabby unreasonable ass. which i dont want happening. but i guess im gettin a taste of my own medicine. didnt think that would happen though. am i to be happy that now he isnt just letting me win all the time, or am i to be upset becoz he's sayin the stuff he really feels now? whatever it is, its not a nice feeling at all when it happens. u feel this physical pain in the chest, the tears well up in ur eyes, and suddenly ure at a total lost for words coz ure in shock.
-is it bad not to want to care? caring gets u hurt. if u dont care u cant get hurt. i dunno how many times ive harped on about this. i guess now the issue is- to be selfish or to be selfless. do u do something so that u can make it easier for urself? or do u do something else that makes ur life more difficult but makes someone else happy?
-was reading jeff's email to me the other day. from like 2 years ago. i realized how well he knows me. even though i never knew it, or i never wanted to admit it. he said that whenever shit happens to me, if i try my best to rectify the problem and i still cant make it better, i leave it to rot for all i care. seriously how much more right can someone get? but then again, what else is there to do when uve done what u can? how do u keep tryin when ure goin nowhere? n is there a point in trying n trying? if u just gave up wouldnt it be easier? in the long run i guess.
-now ian thinks i dont l*ve him enough becoz i said i dont wanna care anymore. but thats not true. i guess its just a habitual (bad one) thing for me. to leave it all n walk away when it gets too hard. or too painful. but why is that wrong?
-totally lost now. maybe things will get better once the exams r over. i hope.
-right now its just a big ball of shit. dad asked me today at dinner "are u happy about anything today rae" n i said "NO" n he said "yup sure sounds like it".
-at least i dont sit around and mope and wanna kill myself. well i wanna kill myself but i cant do it. so. thats what the blog is for. to ramble, whine, complain. and then after that, leave the shit n get on with the rest of the shit. what else is there to do?
Later ; 5:32 PM ;
Sunday, November 13, 2005
-have finally completed moving my whole damn old blog (59 posts in total) over to this current URL. found that 1) pple i didnt know were reading and commenting on my shit 2) pple i did know and trusted and used to be friends with and therefore had my blog address, were using the content of my posts against me. a certain someone didnt like what i said in my posts even though it didnt pertain to that person, and wrote abt how much he/she hated me on his/her blog, which i wasnt meant to know about. well. to save me from having to deal with shit like that, this blog is pretty much goin to be private from now on. IF URE IN HERE READING, THIS MEANS THAT I TRUST THAT U RESPECT FREEDOM OF SPEECH, AND ARE SMART ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT BLOGS ARE FOR RAMBLING ABOUT THE STUFF THAT U ARE NOT ABLE TO (IRONICALLY) FREELY SPEAK TO PEOPLE. THIS ALSO MEANS THAT IF I WRITE ABOUT SOMETHING AND U READ IT, U SHUDDUP ABOUT IT, AND DONT GO AROUND TELLIN THE WHOLE WORLD. AND U ALSO DO NOT MAKE JUDGEMENTS ABOUT HOW SHITTY A PERSON I AM BECAUSE OF WHAT I SAY ON THIS BLOG.
-anyways. moving on from that. finally the damn psyc 202 exam is over. been stressing out over it for the longest time. been studying relatively consistently throughout the sem, but somehow as always, i never seem to have the mental capacity to remember whatever i've painstakingly read and attempted to remember. anyways ive been so stressed, last nite i was at giving up point, so when reading nothing was goin in. had naps at 11-2, 4-5, woke up at 5 set the alarm for 7, set alarm at 7 for 9.30...finally got outta bed at 930 and went to school. to study. damn library doesnt open till 12. so had to sit around for an hour tryin to read. met Pern on the way to the library so we went to hackett hall ( i didnt know the damn cafe was open until he said so). 'studied' there for an hr before goin to library..didnt get much done there either. seriously. point of saturation. or diminishing marginal returns at the seriously diminished point.
-got to the exam hall. managed to read thru the cover page of the exam paper to see the questions on the next page. and realized that i couldnt do all the damn questions. anyways. there was one on the last page in which i had reasonable confidence to do, so started on that. managed to do another one quite ok-ly. had to force myself to pick a last question to do (had to do 3 outta 12). farkkkk..i just hoep i get my HD. or a D. whatever.
-went to city after that with nicole, steven n sean. had bubble t. came home to meet mark..hung ard at home for a while..den went to orbit...till 12...den went for supper at the normal chinese place..the waiter is cuteeee..not like face really great or whatever but he has a nice character. erm ok maybe not character but he's nice n gentle n polite. i likeee..n he smiles at me.....hehe...anyways, after that we went to utopia again...had bubble t. again..
-sang karaoke in the hall for a while. quite embarrassing coz uh. there were a few guys who came outta the karaoke rooms n stood there n watched. n clapped. coz damn sean was encouraging nonsense. and being an idiot...was quite fun though...reminded me of singing in halls with sam n joyce...i misss u guys..cant wait to come back......
-speakin of which. back on 28th. cant waitttt...i miss everyone heaps n heaps...n i miss doin all the stuff that u get to do in singapore. even when u dun have a car...n cant wait to see ian again. speasking of which the damn babee hasnt called me since this arvo..n hasnt picked up his fone or rung back since i dunno when...gettin a bit worried.....but at the moment i think im a bit too tired to really get mad. so im not gonna.
-frickin tired now. haven had a proper sleep (wake up set alarm wake up re0set alarm) since last nite, and generally for the past 1 month or so. when im stressed i cant fall asleep.
-tmr gotta go give tuition to nat's frens..econs tuition for which im not even LEGALLY certified. by legally i mean, i dun even know what the hell the syllabus is and whether whatever im tellin em is correct...and this is year 11 shit. that was 3 years ago. cant remember anything..
-so now despite being tired as hell..im gonna have to look thru this crap that my sister loaned me (notes, textbook etc all the shit that comes with schoolwork). DAMMIT. im screwed. those kids prolly know i dunno what im saying to them. but then why do they keep callin me back to give em tuition again??!!!! well for $30 an hour. im not gonna complain. that gives me 3/4 tank of petrol.
-cheerio for now. need to get on with this shit. oh. and mark won me a care bear from skill tester. those machines where u have the claw thing n u have to pick up stuff with it. :P
i so need sleep
Later ; 9:00 PM ;
eye creases...marry me pleaseeeeee??
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